Not Smoking: Day 11

In my decision to quit smoking finally, I have also sentenced myself to suffering through recovery.. If that makes sense.

Basically, when you smoke, you lungs, throat and esophagus are all compromised and damaged. Studies show that if you quit smoking within 10 years of starting, your body will fully regenerate itself back to a healthy state, after 10 years, it will recover, but not completely. 

Well, my body is in recovery mode. My throat feels like it’s on fire constantly, along with that it feels like I haven’t drank water in days (which is bull, I’ve been drinking way over 64oz a day). My chest feels like it’s being pushed on by some sort of brick or heavy object making every breath not hard, but not natural. My voice is raspy, hoarse, crackily, whatever words you want to use to describe it.. but basically it sounds like I’m talking in a painful talk/whisper. If I talk any louder than that, I’m sentenced to a coughing fit. With my coughing fits I normally end up with tears streaming down my face and I end up hacking up mucus from god knows what (meaning I think it’s shit coming from my lungs).

I’m so uncomfortable. I just want this to end.

And before anyone suggests it. I did go to the doctor yesterday to get checked for strep, bronchitis or any other sickness. I didn’t really understand what the doctor told me, but I think it was something around the lines of: “basically, you’re getting the worst case scenario from quitting your habit of smoking.. Here are 3 different medications to make you feel a little more comfortable during the process!”

Thanks.

Had I known that this would happen when I started smoking, I never would have. I can’t even imagine what my insides look like or looked like while I was smoking. It sickens me to think of it. Why would I do something like this to myself. Why would anybody.

If you smoke and you’re reading this. Please quit. Please before it’s too late. I smoked a little over 1/2 a pack a day for 4 years and this is what I am going through. 

Don’t make your body suffer any longer.